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Jun Lozada. ZTE-NBN Deal. Joey de Vencecia. Romulo Neri. Benjamin Abalos. $30 million dollar kickback. Whew! Do these words and names ring a bell? I guess every Filipino, I mean most Filipinos, here and abroad, young and old, marginalize or elitist, we know the current situation of our country today. The shame we have to endure for years have now elevated and I do not know if we still have the guts to present ourselves to other people. What had happened to our country? It has been taken over by greedy officials whose only thought is how to amass more wealth through the people’s money. Well, how much is their salary, anyway, Php 30,000 to Php 50,000 a month. However, look at their mansions on exclusive subdivisions, their high-end cars, and their trip abroad during weekends. Can anyone tell me who can have all these things with just that minimal salary? They are able to maintain their overly luxurious life (if there would be a more superlative term, then that would be better), due to their position in government. I can’t find the right words to express my dismay to these government officials. Can they still sleep at night knowing that millions of Filipinos does not even have a place to stay that night? Could they possibly afford to eat on 3 thousand-per plate restaurants when many Filipinos are dying from hunger? Do they still have the conscience to see poor and suffering Filipinos? Now, this controversial ZTE-NBN Deal has sparked further outcries from people. Students, professionals, church leaders and even the ordinary Filipino wants to know the truth and the resignation of Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo would spare our country from the disgrace it has long tolerated. For the past two weeks, many rallies, noise barrage, closed-door meetings have happened in order to show the government that Filipinos are sick and tired of the corruption happening.  Now, are these rallies really the solution for all the problems we're facing right now? Yes, PGMA may be corrupt, an evil president or the luckiest bitch in town as what Neri and Governor Salcedo had said, but can we have a better replacement for her. If we could have a much better answer for that, then Gloria should indeed resign but so long as there's ambiguity as to whether who will replace Gloria then we must find other options for this problem.

We need a concrete and real solution for this problem our nation faces these days.

All of us may have their own fantasies in life, things we want or desire that are too impossible to achieve. Some may lie in our wildest dreams or in our well-kept journal.  I, myself have a lot of fantasies in life. One of the greatest and most impossible thing to happen is having my wings. Like what I always say, I guess that I was a butterfly in my past life because I really want to have wings and fly. That's why the song "Breakaway" really caught my attention. "I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly...flyaway, breakaway." I wonder how fantastic it is to fly. It's a great feeling, I guess. Fantasies... I wonder if I'll ever get the chance to sit beside Johnny Depp. Wow! That's really a awesome experience, being seated with one of my ultimate crush. Uhm... Okay, just another dream of mine. 

Well, those are just two of my MANY fantasies in life. I chose not to reveal my other fantasies because you might laugh at me. hahaha. Well, anyway I've had some fantasies which did come true. So I'll never get tired of dreaming and achieve my "dreams" (Of course, except on having wings, because that's way too impossible).  

If you are familiar with American Idol and its latest season, I guess you'll have a hint what my blog will be about! Yes, it's about Renaldo Lapuz and his masterpiece, "Brothers Forever." One afternoon while I was studying for my math longtest, I got hold of the remote control and browse through channels, hoping to find an interesting show that will save me from being totally drown from business calculus! Anyways, I happened to stop pressing the remote when I got to QTV Channel 11. They were flashing some scenes from the newest season of American Idol. I got intrigued by this man totally drabbed with a coat, so I thought of waiting for the show, which I eventually did. If I'm not mistaken it was the first day of the auditions for the next AI and the last to audition for that day was Renaldo Lapuz from Reno, Nevada. When I saw his name I told myself that "Filipino siya!" True enough he's really Pinoy. He sang his own composition "Brothers Forever." Then Paula Abdul, one of the judges, asked what about her so Mr. Lapuz said it can also be a sister. Then, I started laughing. I laughed not because I was taunting his looks nor his not-so-good in English skills, I was laughing because he just possess that real sense of humor any Filipino has. He look so serious but I can help not to laugh. Simon Cowell asked him to repeat the song. "I am your brother, your bestfriend forever." It is just so easy to memorize because it's really short and just goes around the same lyrics. Paula, Randy and even Ryan (wow, so hot!!!) danced while Renaldo was "seriously" singing. Simon remained at his seat while watching them dance and sing. He said that he has a horrible feeling that that song will become a hit. Looks like "She Bangs" of William HUng right? Well, at the end of the audition, even though Renaldo made us laugh he wasn't able to get into the Hollywood. Awww, so sad but he's become a star on his own right knowing his rppts here in the Philippines. From being a tricycle driver to a overnight "Hollywood" star. Go Renaldo!!! That's the Filipino spirit.

    Okay. Year 2007 has passed and now we have a new year to anticipate. The year that has passed has been a great year for me. I had a lot of memories, which until now I love to remember and even wish to repeat.  But I know those memories wouldn't be repeated nor will they come back, all I can do is to remember those times. Like what they say, "past is past" but it doesn't mean that we have to totally forget our past. It's just that we shouldn't dwell so much on the past but more so we should make this year even greater.

      I've met a lot of friends who really are so important to me because they've taught me valuable lessons in life. I was able to do some stuffs which I thought I couldn't do. I've had some great experiences with such wonderful people. I've had some sleepless nights because of texting (which I never did before). I've cried a lot of times, which is quite strange because in the past I rarely cry. I've shared laughter with my friends. I've had some chat with good old friends. I've got in to the Ateneo!! What else can I ask for? My family and I we're just so blessed during the past year. And I'm so grateful to the Lord for giving me the oppurtunity to accomplish all these things. I wouldn't be here if I don't have the support of my family and friends who stood by my side all these years. I love them so much. 

Cheers to a wonderful and fun-filled New Year to us.

I guess everyone wants to visit the Eiffel tower and be in love with the glamorous city of Paris. Well, that’s also one of my dreams, to be able to stroll around the streets of Paris. Wow, I never realized that it would happen yesterday, in my dream. Walking around Paris, dressed with the most beautiful coat I’ve ever saw in my life. I was bringing plenty of paperbags with designer clothes in it. Then during the night, I went to the Eiffel tower. Just when I was enjoying the majestic view, I saw light, light coming through the window. Oh it’s morning, it was just a dream.

As of this writing, it's 13 days to go before Christmas. Yehey!!! I'm overly anticipating christmas, like what I always feel every year. The ambiance is just so different when it is christmas. I'm sure most people would agree when I say christmas is the most fun filled season in the Philippines. The Christmas season started two weeks ago. Well actually it's the advent season. But to most Filipinos, christmas starts during the -ber months, so September. Some are overly excited that they start to place christmas decorations. Well, for us we still don't have christmas decorrations at home. I said I will be the one to decorate but my laziness prevailed. Wjen I went home to Pampanga last week, I saw our christmas tree, not decorated but just outside of its box. I guess we don't have the time to decorate because our family have been really BUSY for the past week. I hope now that its barely two weeks before Christmas, we would be able to hang those christmas lights and have the energy to decorate our not-so-huge christmas tree. Going back, on Sunday the "simbang gabi" will start already. In our parish, the mass is at 5 am in the morning. But now that I'm in Manila, I wouldn't be able to attned those mass. I will surely miss that. I just love attending mass especially dawn masses. Uhmm, what else should I say about Christmas. Ahh, food food and lots of food. Christmas season is also the season of feast. There's just a lot of food ,that I bet at the end of the Christmas break, you've gained weight. Don't worry, christmas is just once a year, so you have another 365 days to shed those gained weight and prepare for the next christmas. 

My christmas blog ends here. A wonderful christmas to all!!!!!

A Sudden Death

 

Last November 24, 2007, at around 9 in the morning we found our 8 month old Persian cat, Ashley lying in her cage. We thought she was just sleeping. We kept on calling her but she didn’t even move. Then my mother told us that she was dead. At first, we couldn’t believe it. How could she die? She eats well, takes vitamins, and we know that she’s pretty alright.

 

            I must admit that I am really not fond of pets. I was actually indignant when I learned that my mom bought a cat. I know she’s cute and really looks nice. But we all have asthma and allergies. So the cat’s fur is not so good for us and could even trigger asthma. But my mother bought the cat because when we’re all in school, she’s alone at home so she thought of buying a cat. My mom really takes good care of Ashley. Every morning she would call her and the cat would answer back, of course with a “meow meow.”

 

            We were all saddened by Ashley’s death, especially my mom. Well, our cat has served her purpose and that was her destiny. We wouldn’t want to buy another pet because it’s so devastating when a pet dies and we wouldn’t want to experience that again.

 

Blurred….

 

Blurred. That’s how I want to describe my dream. Everything seems to be unclear. It was indeed so vague. I was in this room full of people I don’t even know. In the first place, I don’t even know why I was in that room or why are all these people inside this room.  Then, nobody talks to me, as if I don’t exist. But I am sure that I was standing at the corner of the room. People were passing by me but they don’t smile or even look at me. I’m aware that they don’t know me but can’t they just even approach me and introduce themselves. So I moved towards the nearest lady, but still she can’t see me. What? Am I invisible? I guess I was. I ran around the room, yes the room which was filled with people and I don’t even bump into one of them. I ran and ran until…I woke up.

Fine! My sembreak is over. huhuhu. " Every new beginning comes from some others beginning's end." Yeah right. I have to start another sem. I have to go back to Manila (QC-katipunan.) and be away from home for four nights and five days (I hope wala nang extension pa ng saturday. hehehe). Emo na ba?! hahahaha. Senti lang talaga or tinatamad lang talaga ako mag aral ulit? hahaha. Maybe...the answer is...BOTH! hahahaha. I'm looking forward for the next vacation. hahahaha. Christmas Break!! hahahaha. Yay! Jacket time!!!  Weird?! This is the time when I could wear my favorite jacket without ever minding people criticizing me for wearing one..hahahaha (Hey! it's December, malamig na! hahaha). Simbang Gabi! Uhmm, I don't think macocomplete ko 9 mornings this year coz I'm in Manila and I don't know if I'll be able to go to mass, but I'll try! Uhm, what else? Gifts? nah, I'm too old for that. I got over that stage of so much anticipation for gifts. But I do love to get some gifts. hahaha Ube!!! yipee! The delicious "halayang ube" (tama ba spelling?) of my tito!!! yummmy. Prusisyon!! Yep, Tradition na sa family yan! Baking!!! hahahaha. I'm planning to bake chocolate smore...hahaha whaaat?! Nakuha yung recipe sa katoque!! But I'm doing my own super chocolate smore!! hahahaha. Sana lang sipagin ako magbake. Uhmm, Ms. Vi's birthday.. Yay!!! another celebration!! hahahaha. AND OF COURSE!!!! JESUS' BIRTHDAY!! It's the reason why we celebrate Christmas!!!!

 

hai, i guess...the title of my blog should have been....Bea's Christmas List!!! hahahaha.

 

Bear with my sanity!!! wahahahahah

 

 

Walkin’ alone….alone….alone. I am walking towards a castle. I don’t know why am I going there, but I still continued to walk. Still confused, I reached the castle’s huge doors and the guards bowed down and greeted me. Am I someone worthy of that honor? Later on I discovered that I am a princess. What?! How come I’ve become a princess? Never in my wildest dreams have I ever imagined myself being a princess, but I am now a princess (at least, in this dream only). Am I only dreaming? Yes I am indeed dreaming!!